The recent celebration of Halloween had me considering what frightens me and had me go back and re-read this prose by Marianne Williamson. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.”
After a couple months with plenty of ideas to write about and a flow of words when I began writing, I had recently felt blocked and uninspired. Every time I tried to write an article, nothing would come to me. Remembering the enthusiasm I felt when I wrote the last newsletter, I knew I must have triggered an unconscious fear. September had also been my best month thus far in my business, so it was pretty clear the block was related to growing my business.
In a further part of Marianne’s message, she says “We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?” On a non-conscious level I was asking myself was I good enough to play on a larger scale? Was I capable? Was it possible to have what I really want or was I setting myself up to be disappointed? So I stopped writing and business slowed down again. I played to not lose instead of playing to win.
The insidious nature of limiting beliefs and self-doubt is that it often takes a change in our feelings and behaviours before we are consciously aware we have run into a fear. Inertia, writer’s block, going around in circles accomplishing nothing, hiding out, and feeling blah and purposeless are some clues to alert us to the fear. However by the time we experience those we are usually asking very loudly “what is wrong with me? Why can’t I …? We feel ashamed that we’re not taking action on our stated goals. Yikes! That only leads to more self-doubt.
Can you relate to my experience? I would love to hear how this scenario has played out for you.
Today I felt the support of the Universe in wrapping up my writer’s block challenge. This morning I read the fingerprints of an Innovative Messenger. People with this purpose have to discover what their message is, deliver it to an audience, and receive feedback on how clear the message is. This client’s message will be on the cutting edge as Innovators are here to see and do things in new ways. However, with any Life Purpose, there is usually a fear of doing that which you are called to do. Messengers often have to overcome their reluctance to speak up.
Our conversation about her life purpose must have cleared my own writer’s block as the inspiration for this piece came shortly afterward. Interestingly I had an energy treatment this afternoon in which my throat chakra turned out to be blocked. That chakra has to do with communication. Now I am sitting at the computer finally inspired and able to get my message written.
Now back to my original question. What are you afraid of? Could it be really living your Life Purpose? Who would you have to be to play that full out? Are you willing to step into the part of yourself who is courageous and confident? Will you play to win?
I look forward to hearing from you.
Do you want to speed up the process of living your life on purpose and playing to win? No one steps onto the Olympic podium without a coach. If you are tired of taking baby steps and want to stride into greatness, contact me to discuss how Heart Power Coaching can fast forward you into living your life purpose and shining your brilliant light in the world.
Here is the rest of the inspiring quote from Marianne.
“Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
(Marianne Williamson, Return to Love, Harper Collins, 1992.)
Warmest regards,
Rosemary Heenan
The Heart Activist
I learned one of my biggest fears was that I would become too successful in my business to be an effective mother to my children. I was literally sacrificing my own happiness and success so that I could spend whole days cleaning, cooking and doing laundry for my family 🙂 When I expressed this out loud it seemed obsurd and instantaneously the fear disappeared. Like I had exposed it to light and it vanished. Almost instantly things began to move in a direction that supported success in my business.
Thanks for sharing this post with us Rosemary!